Hello guys,
first of all I need to apologize for being so anti-social lately. The reason is simple, I haven´t felt like sharing my diet, recipes or exercise routine because I started gaining weight. I´ve gained more than 5kilos (10lbs) in first few months of 2015 and more 5kilos in like last two months.
In January I decided to give Raw Till 4 a try - raw fruit for breakfast, lunch and then cooked vegan (high carb) meals for dinner. I was doing it for 3 months together with daily exercise (mostly HIITs and running). I gained 3kilos (2lbs) and felt really bad about myself, my energy levels were really low and I wasn´t happy at all.
Then I decided to end up Raw Till 4 and lose that extra kilos by doing Juice fast. I know, from one extreme to another, not great for my body. But anyway, I loved it. I finally felt like myself - full of energy, happy, I lost some weight. And then,. my boyfriend dumped me, I had to live with my parents, work like 12 hours a day for hardly any money and I started binging on everything - raw food, cooked food, even on non vegan food.. emotional eating.
I wanted to be fully raw again (I know that it is the only way how to be happy, comfortable in my body and full od energy) but I couldn´t do it.
Since summer, I´m on roller coaster.
I moved from the Czech republic to England, to follow my dreams. However, I didn´t realized that I was doing something horrible again - stuffing my face with nuts all days long. Cashews, macadamia nuts, hazelnuts, pistachios, almonds, nut butters etc.. Obviously, I was feeling and looking like shit!!!! My stomach hurt, I was bloated, my face was swollen, I couldn´t sleep and breathe,.. one big mess.
So I made another decision - the 801010 diet. But you know what? It doesn´t work .. One week is great, another is full of binge eating (vegan junk food like oreos, chips, bread, high fat meals and especially coffee). And, of course, I´m gaining more and more kilos every week.. eventhough I go to gym twice a week (doing 1 hour of cardio and 1 hour of weight lifting), go for like 15K walks every other day and I´m very active at work 6 days per week.
I don´t want to show you my current body shape because it is the first time when I´m really ashamed for what I did to myself. I hope that it is not your case but I´ll probably be strugling with weight all my life (which sounds like a nightmare to me) .. but when you have the past, it is so hard to think and act differently in the present. I wish I had find the strenght in myself again.
Take care
Nicky











